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By Holly Ford
Today I feel a lack of music in my soul
I feel alone, confused, misplaced and tired.
My inner voice has quieted, dulled,
lulled to sleep by the roar of techno-progress
and psycho-babble.
I’ve battled insecurities all day
Yet still they loom before me
For I’m weakened, drained,
And angred by my self-anger.
I slump, head in hands
Bathing in frustration and afraid of isolation
Wrapped in my choke-hold of silence
IlovehimIlovehimIlovehimI
See him worshipping his angels
O lost love a religion though he’ll always deny it
And he’s shackled and manacled
Likemelikemelikeme
Tied to the weight of his words
And I claw and I scratch while I
Make accommodations for my pain
And I smile when I walk down the street
And I smile when the angels walk by
And I smile and I dance while I’m
Pushing back the heat within my glance
And I’m watching him thinking of her
And he can’t understand,
Won’t realize that I’m looking at him
With my heart in my eyes
Singing lovemelovemeloveme free me
Lift me up and spin me
Pull me in your tides and crazy shores
Tell me what I think I see from time to time in you is true
I’ll splash in your wake if I know I’m wanted to
And I’m watching him trusting him
Watching him walking alone wanting her
And I pull myself up and I shine for him
Golden and glowing above him
And he sees me and says
If it’s bright, well, she shines brighter
(but he’ll never admit it)
and I sink below the horizon
aching in red and orange over hills
he must have shared more deeply
with her
and I am not her
but ilovehimilovehimilovehim I
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