There's a peace of heaven I cannot grasp, but only know of,

A peace unattainable by mortal souls, who can bear the truth of their wisdoms for only brief moments.

I hear the angels' beautiful screams as they ascend without me.

Their hands no longer enwrapped around my own,

Because of a selfish life, I cannot let go of.

A struggle within that cannot be calmed, or soothed,

But the angels do not relent in their throbbing, yet soothing wails.

That song of radiance that echoes forever in my soul.

And I run in the wrong direction, towards the wrong sun,

Afraid to leave the pain that messages my heart,

The pain that keeps me feeling, somehow, alive.

And I realize that the streams of tears do not escape as easily as in childhood.

As time encompasses the aging stars,

I see you in that bed, holding the angels' hands.

And I can cry, barely,

For I know that when you go, I cannot come.

And the wisdom and knowledge that stretch in those deep gray eyes,

That I see so lucidly.

In flashes of memories,

Where you took my hand and led me across the street so safely.

Because you were the feet that carried on down that rocky, trodden path,

Where the moon was the only visible beacon in our times of darkness.

And when I pierce into that song,

pierce into that moon that develops and rises within your eyes,

I know you have given me the only gift a mother can.

That, being life.

A life where truth and soaring wisdom can be found,

Only when one unchains herself from her freedoms.

And as you rise, like the moon in the pastel twilight,

I cry to cleanse myself of all that has dragged me away from your heart.

Because I will always be your little angelic cherub,

Who hugs you with childlike innocence,

Who always clings to your neck with a frightened child's love.

Because you are my Mother Nature,

You are my soul's bearer.

And when you leave me,

Please be the angel, who sings so beautifully in the distance.

The distance that beckons an eternal hand to hold,

A translucent tide, that brings me closer to the halo of redemption.